the heartbreak of being human (and musings on my trip)


Dear ones-

I'm writing this on Friday night and I’m standing in a cafe, buzzing with voices and smells and the energy of a big city. The cafe is attached to the Scottish Storytelling Center in Edinburgh and tonight is the first night of the Scottish International Storytelling Festival whose theme this year is “Right to be Human”. A theme which only seems to feel more urgent and relevant with each passing day.

I won’t say much because it’s not my field, expertise, or experience to speak to and the world does not need more arm chair experts. But terrorism is not justice, nor is genocide. And sometimes the most courageous thing we can do is not more posturing of aggression and strength, but to be the first to say, “Underneath my anger, I’m actually scared and fucking heartbroken” and, if we’re lucky enough to encounter a brave soul who is saying that, then to be the first to admit, “me, too.”

Sometimes, before any answers or new possibilities come, we just have to be heartbroken, together.

Sometimes, that’s the only way we remember we’re all human.


So, I haven’t been very good at keeping you all apprised of my travels. It’s not that I don’t want to. It’s more that one of the things I’ve been tracking and musing on during this journey is how quickly we, collectively, jump to analysis. To diagnoses. To engagement-seeming patterns which are really a form of distancing.

There’s something in me, something about what these lands are awakening in me, that isn’t allowing for that. I move through my days, craving the experience of life washing through and around me as I dance with it. Just being with what’s in front of me, trusting it to be enough.

It feels human. It feels good.

About a month and half ago, a few days after I arrived in Scotland, Erik interviewed me about my trip and we intended to release it as a bonus episode… but time passed and I didn’t. Honestly, I feel like there’s something quite sweet and quite cringe about talking about a trip I just started, as if I could ever know what was about to unfold. And I really struggled with listening back to it. (I finally did and it’s not soooo bad hahaha).

So join us around the fire today to hear my initial musings on:

  • why I’m in Scotland and Ireland;
  • ruptures in my ancestral roots;
  • tending inner wounds of oppressor and oppressed;
  • layers of culture;
  • choosing to build skill and capacity for healthy conflict;
  • healing backwards and forwards;
  • feeling the land calling me;
  • the gap between my expectations and reality;
  • a reactivated ‘witch wound’;
  • my why behind the podcast and the surprising (to me) revelation that starting it was also connected to this trip;
  • letting stories be alive;
  • knowledge, wisdom, and stories in community;
  • when myths become propaganda;
  • waiting for heroes to come save us;
  • learning how to receive stories so we can more intentionally engage with them

…. and more.

There are literal thousands of miles of journey between the Kate who writes to you now and the one you’ll hear in the episode. But, as I say at the end, I hope this episode gives you a little more sense of who I am/ have been.

I hope it inspires you or allows you to find something that allows you to feel you belong.

I hope it reflects how stepping away from what’s familiar and onto another land can open us, humble us, enliven us.

I hope it avoids completely interpreting another culture through my own lens. And where I inevitably have, I hope you can hold the tension of my own interpretation with the differing ones you have or have heard.

After all, conversations like this walk the line between facts, stories, and possibilities. And that’s why we gather around the fire.

With love,

Kate

P.S. I'm planning to record the next installment in trip musings soon... so you can hear more about where I am know. <3

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Hi! I'm Kate - an intuitive, medicine woman, and guide for embodied Presence

I care with every fiber of my being that you, a creature of soul and soil, are trying to thrive in systems not designed for you. Where ancient wounds of disconnect, inherited traumas, and misalignments with our over-culture leave you feeling out of place, too much, or like a canary in the mine, I see invitations back deeper into your own aliveness; vital next steps to a wiser, more relational future. Let’s navigate your big questions and transitions together. I’ll support you living meaningfully in this world even though you may feel like you were designed for a different one. I’ll keep you orienting to the truth, heart, and essential wholeness of who you are at the edge of great joy and when you need your feet held to the fire of your own journey. You can see what I offer: www.wildsacredjourney.com and sign up to get a little bit of me, direct to your inbox!

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